What Happens when Trying to be Perfect

What happens to me when trying to be perfect….. Well not much.

Growing up I struggled, without going into much detail, let’s say one was never good enough and being shamed was a way of life at home. Those feelings led to much emotional upheaval in the broad spectrum of my entire life.

All areas were effected, from relationships, friendships, family associations, trust issues, including trust my own decisions, to not getting things done in general.

Maybe I am being hard on myself, as most would think I am accomplished, a long term business, financially stable, home paid in full, so what am I bitching about some may wonder ?

Ok the long term business has been on going, but all the rest are new to me. Today there are different goals. My desire is to move from a life of computer sales, to a life of creating art. There are responsibilities, an employee who has a few years left before retirement made a commitment to me, so I to him.

This is a blessing as phasing into something, gives one time to work grow and “ Make Mistakes “.

The making of mistakes was a horror story relived mentally in abundance. Create a great business deal, and that was normal, screw one up, and that was pain. Much time has been spent in the last 2 1/2 years of forging the mental change to gratitude and…